So, I have duly submitted my two expense claims about three weeks ago. This month they were quite high. After all, I did spend two weeks at an unknown international location. No cash flow until they’ve been paid out. I log into internet banking every hour or so. I’m expecting the money. I’m praying for the money. All that stares back at me is: Available R20.03!
I know I will get notification when the money finally appears. Based on experience I know that will be Tuesday morning at 6am, since I received the work tracking emails on Thursday. But yet…I find myself logging in to double check. Worst of all I am actually disappointed when that R20.03 stares back at me mockingly!
This baseless optimism of mine has brought me serious heartache. I know (based on past experience) that this friend will cancel at the last minute (I did that yesterday!), I know the love of my life is not going to listen, yet I invite again or I try to talk again. I treat life and people like I treat my empty bank account. I often keep on looking for what is not there. Luckily for me most people in my life shows an available balance of R1000 000 000 and more if you need. Do I want to change? Nope! I have found that if I keep on looking, even a R20.03 bank balance can surprise me. I am not too old and tired to expect surprises J.